Saturday, January 26, 2013

 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

I can't even begin to explain how much comfort this verse has brought to me as of late. I had stumbled upon it a few weeks ago while reading up, and I just felt like the Lord was speaking directly to me. I love when that happens, perfect timing, perfect verse, perfect peace.
We have been praying so much over our future and also trying to be content in this season. I admit this has been really hard for me. I felt like Fort Hood was our home and when we left it felt as if the only home I had really known with my husband and kids was ripped away from me.
I have been working on trying to get this to feel more like home, unpacking quickly, setting up the kiddos bedrooms, trying to get back into a schedule. It has felt like a weird dream. I haven't been able to get back into a groove, and it has just really been frustrating me.
I've felt so worn out.
I was just so concerned that we haven't gotten involved in a church, and I was feeling really separated from God and His word, and really feeling defeated. Then the verse happened.
My weakness, well let me tell y'all. I AM WEAK. Weak over this whole situation, over this unsteady feeling. I am a total planner and I have felt like nothing has been in my control. I am thinking maybe the Lord has a sense of humor because I have been in control of nothing :) I had been feeling like a failure, trying so hard to make it feel like it did in Fort Hood. But the truth of the matter is that I couldn't and I would never be able to do that, My weakness was enabling the Lord to be strong for me. I was trying to be strong when the whole time the Lord was showing me to. stop. let myself be weak.
His GRACE is enough for me at this very moment.
while my kids are screaming.
while my dishes are piled.
while my bed is not made.
while the future feels so very uneasy.
His Grace is enough.
So this week, I'm trying to rest in that promise. I'm boasting of my weakness, so He can be lifting me up.

advice from a friend :)

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

It will all work out.
This was what a very amazing friend told me on the phone the other day.
Let me tell you that I have said this to myself thousands of times, and when she said it,
I actually believed it.
Amazing what God has planned, exactly when he wants you to hear something.
It sometimes freaks me out a little bit :) ha ha
I feel like I should say " Okay God, I totally understand what you have been trying to show me"
and then Icing on the cake: ALL 3 kids slept solidly until 7 am! yes, it's a miracle!
oh gosh, all the things the Lord is teaching is overwhelming.
-gratefulness for where I'm at, this season of my life
-patience, because I have been lacking in this area lately
Then with my very sweet group of girls from Ft. Hood, we have started studying and reading the book "Unglued" by Lisa Terkeurst. This is sooo good for me, totally speaking to me in this time and place.
 So if you have a chance, pick it up :)

My sweet advice giver!


a vet's wife

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

It is so hard to go from the wife on the arm of her soldier to a veteran's wife.
Please don't get me wrong, being his wife no matter his job is what I want more than anything in this life. And trust me when I say his career didn't define me, but it did define our family.
It doesn't make it easy when I see him standing in the closet looking at his uniforms with love as he hangs them away.
Or when people ask him what he does, he swallows hard and he is still able to tell them he just got out of the Army because it was only December.
It's hard when he goes to the gym and he corrects himself that it is no longer PT but just staying in shape.
It is hard to see those dog tags hanging on the bathroom mirror and him not wearing them.
It's even harder when you are unpacking and I put all of his pt clothes BACK in his drawer,
he laughed a little when he saw it... I just did it out of habit.
Its so very hard, hard that he no longer wears that uniform, but deserves the same respect.
My husband is a veteran.

crazy mommy brain

Monday, January 14, 2013

I have had so many thoughts and ideas and all types of ideas in my head.
so forgive the writing mess that is about to take place....
The craziness of being "home" and getting settled into this amazing house we have.
I have just been a little out of control.
I'm a worrier by nature, and I have been wondering/worrying about the future.
I have no doubt about this being a transition period for our family, we aren't supposed to settle and just be, God has something much better planned for our future. But I have had such a hard time staying content in this place, this time. Please don't get me wrong, I am soooo very thankful for all I have, I just really had a different idea in my head.
A different place for my children to grow up.
So again, working on the "being content", it is crazy difficult.
so my to do list to make this transition period a little better
1. find a church- we have tried a few and I think we may have found a good fit for the family
2. join a gym, I just need to get out and have some "alone time." can't think of a better way than going to work out at the gym
3. join a small group/mommy group or even a bible study
4. quiet prayer and study time, once my house is completely unpacked this will be a much easier task.
also just praying hard, fervently about our future.
God is so good to provide.

hello 2013!

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

I seriously can NOT believe it's already 2013.
This year went by just way too quickly, although I can't even express how happy I am that 2012 is over. 2012 was a hard year in general and I feel blessed that we made it through and are now in a transition period. We aren't really sure where The Lord will be leading us this year but we take great comfort in knowing this is just a transition and we are excited to see what 2013 brings!
2012 was such a crazy year!
-testing for me to find out about my stomach issues
-finding out we were expecting!:)
-I was hospitalized after miscarrying
-Our decision to not accept military orders to Germany
-moving to New Mexico
-Tim leaving the military
-Tim taking a new job
-moving into our new home!
(we have yet to receive our home goods after requesting them over a month ago!)
-and now a new year!
I am so happy for the new year, a new fresh start! I feel like The Lord has awesome things in store for our family. We are continuing to pray for God's guidance in a job for Tim, praying that we are following God's plan for our lives. We are praising Him, who makes all things new!
My word for the year: GRACE, I can't think of a better word honestly,I feel like Grace covers everything.
My personal verse for the year: "Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus". 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

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