moving on
I sometimes think I actually like to make myself crazy with stress.Ever since hubby decided to get out of the Army,I have kinda been at a loss as to how life would be?I know it sounds strange, but for the past 6 years I have been,either engaged or married to the military.My whole life has revolved around this incredible man and the army.I feel like I'm losing a huge part of me.I've been overwhelmed at the thought of having to pick a place to live.I know we can always move but it feels pretty permanent.Picking the place our "new" lives will start minus the military.Having his family tell us why New Mexico is better, and mine tell us Texas is best.It feels overwhelming to say the least. I am super excited that there will never be anymore deployments, no cq, no more duty days :) I am also sad, sad that my children won't grow up on army posts, hearing the bugle every night.It's such a mix of emotions!I have to often make myself remember that it will all work out, and thank God I am not the one in control. 
When my husband told me he wanted to get out of the Marines I felt lost. I wanted him to stay in, I knew the chances of getting hired at the local police department was a very small percent. Things were definitely overwhelming and weird. And now here we are.. almost 2 years later and in the Coast Guard. It's funny how things work out.
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