When Seasons Change

Thursday, July 30, 2015

My mama heart has been a little tense this summer. I can feel the change coming and I'm just not sure if I am ready for it. The change feels heavy and sudden. My kids are growing so fast and I can't make it slow down like I want it to. But the truth is that I'm about to have no babies in my house anymore and it literally is giving me anxiety.
Our family will be in a new season and there will be so much more freedom. Freedom to do so many things we can't do during the baby stage. 


But I just can't shake the sadness I feel to be moving on from the "baby" season. I'll no longer be making them- just raising them and what a scary concept! I love those sweet baby snuggles, the smells and the coos and I don't know that I will ever feel "done" having babies.

This past week I officially stopped nursing what could very possibly be my last baby. It was so bittersweet. I still can't believe it's done but at 21 months old and maybe a handful of full nights sleep in the past two years it was absolutely time. I needed my body to be my own again!


I'm ready for the season to change, I just don't know if my heart is.





14 comments:

  1. Aww well you can come raise mine whenever I have one! Haha just kidding but no really, feel free to come help!

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    1. ha ha YOU got it! I adore babies!

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  2. Awww, they may not be babies, but they'll always be your babies who will need their mom for cuddles and such... ;) But yeah, if and when I do have babies, please, come and help a friend out!! ;)

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  3. Sending lots of hugs your way. It's amazing how fast the time goes by.

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  4. What a bittersweet feeling, I'm sure! I hope you all love this next season of life! :)

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    1. Thanks so much- I hope the next season is wonderful!

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  5. YOU GO GIRL for nursing for 21 months! You're a champ! Sending big hugs! I'm not in your shoes yet, but I can imagine that it's going to pull on my heart strings a bit when my youngest is officially not a baby anymore.

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    1. It's hard when you can feel them getting bigger!

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  6. We're going to be facing that same season after our baby girl isn't a baby anymore. :( I'll explain on the blog, but after some complications at her birth, I won't be able to carry babies anymore. It was very heartbreaking to be told that. We didn't expect to be done yet. Ah well. God obviously has greater plans!

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  7. We're going to be facing that same season after our baby girl isn't a baby anymore. :( I'll explain on the blog, but after some complications at her birth, I won't be able to carry babies anymore. It was very heartbreaking to be told that. We didn't expect to be done yet. Ah well. God obviously has greater plans!

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  8. We're going to be facing that same season after our baby girl isn't a baby anymore. :( I'll explain on the blog, but after some complications at her birth, I won't be able to carry babies anymore. It was very heartbreaking to be told that. We didn't expect to be done yet. Ah well. God obviously has greater plans!

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    1. Lydia, I am so sorry to hear this! I know God's plan are always what's best but that sometimes can really hurt our hearts. I am praying for you friend. xo

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