My mama heart has been a little tense this summer. I can feel the change coming and I'm just not sure if I am ready for it. The change feels heavy and sudden. My kids are growing so fast and I can't make it slow down like I want it to. But the truth is that I'm about to have no babies in my house anymore and it literally is giving me anxiety.
Our family will be in a new season and there will be so much more freedom. Freedom to do so many things we can't do during the baby stage.
But I just can't shake the sadness I feel to be moving on from the "baby" season. I'll no longer be making them- just raising them and what a scary concept! I love those sweet baby snuggles, the smells and the coos and I don't know that I will ever feel "done" having babies.
This past week I officially stopped nursing what could very possibly be my last baby. It was so bittersweet. I still can't believe it's done but at 21 months old and maybe a handful of full nights sleep in the past two years it was absolutely time. I needed my body to be my own again!
I'm ready for the season to change, I just don't know if my heart is.