Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I'm sitting watching cartoons with Big A, while little A finally sleeps.
I think she must be teething because she woke up 40 million times last night,
and so I have a big CUP of coffee helping me this morning.
Today we are moving on post!
Well some things..
We will do our walk through in just a bit,
and I have to admit I have been cranky to my husband about it.
Cranky that we are moving yet again.. even though its 5 minutes away.
Cranky that I have to pack.
Cranky that I have to unpack.
Cranky that I have to yet again get my children used to sleeping in their "new" bedrooms.
Super, super cranky.
But I have a confession.
I should never have been cranky at my husband at all.
here is my sad face because I hate to be wrong :(
The reason being is that he told me why he wanted us to move.
He wants us to save some money for the new baby.
He wants his children and wife to be safe while he works nights as an MP.
He is trying his hardest to provide for this family everything we need so we don't have to go without anything.
so.. yes he told me all this and I needed a big huge sign to carry around saying
I can't be mad at him for trying to better our lives.
To make us safer.
To help us save some money.
I need to be thankful for God giving me such an awesome husband who wants, and tries to provide for his family, even though he has an emotional wife who will be cranky for all the wrong reasons.

Wednesday Confessions

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I decided to hook up with Kathryn @ Singing Through The Rain, and do a confession.
Today my confession is:
I suck royally at making friends here.
I have never been a shy person. I actually have always been outgoing but I feel like it is so soooo hard to make decent friends here. I mean don't get me wrong, I have a few friends that I do things with and I am a part of a mommy group, but that's not the type of friendship I am talking about.
I want real friends.
Friends I can feel super comfortable with leaving my children with.
Friends that will support my crazy decisions.
Friends that can come over for dinner and let our kids play for a while, and actually have an adult conversation with.
Friends that possibly go to the same church as me.

I know... big time whiner.
But after going home for the funeral and seeing all my very best friends, its hard to not want someone to be friends with like that.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

As I sit here, I'm debating on whether or not to go to PWOC this week. It would be so nice to go but with the kiddos and their horrible allergies, I don't know if childcare would watch them or not.
I wanted to write about sex and commercials today. Recently my hubby and I put parental locks on the main TV because my 4 year learned how to switch the channel and I would walk in with him on BET videos, or VH1 lol. It's funny now but it really freaked me out. There is so much inappropriate content in those videos. Katie Perry is practically naked or there are women dancing around in bikinis and sex and violence. It's not only in shows or music videos but also in commercials! A commercial selling shoes will zoom only into women's butts and my son kinda laughs like " ha ha, I saw her butt" Or a perfume commercial with Fergie makes you feel so uncomfortable.
Now I know as a mom I need to watch out for this kind of stuff because I want my children to be innocent and young as long as possible, but as adults are we becoming desensitized to what is "appropriate" for daytime television and commercials? Are we so used to this stuff be shoved down our throats it doesn't bother us anymore?
Or am I being super sensitive? What do you guys think?

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, as you can tell it's been CRAZY around here from my last post.
One of my best friends Michael, was murdered. He was walking to his mom's really late at night after he and a friend had gotten in a fight. His friend was following along in his car after Michael asking him to get back into the car when, 2 "gangsters" said something to him, he replied back and I guess that's how the fight started. They stabbed him five times in the left side of his chest. His friend rushed him to the hospital and he was pronounced dead just a few minutes later.
That is the very shortened version, but you get the overall idea.
I know you have heard of those people who were friends with everyone, and that is exactly what Michael was. A truly genuine, incredible person. He didn't deserve this, nobody does and my heart just breaks for his family.
I am so lucky to have gone home while my husband was deployed. Michael and I got to spend time together. He came over to spend time with my kids, so I could just sit on the couch. He came over for dinner sometimes and even took my son and I to a Christmas parade. My son absolutely adored him.
Michael, I love you!

It's been pretty surreal. Life must continue on, and I have to take care of my babies and this baby in my tummy :) We have decided to stop with the recruiting stuff as of now and just continue to pray about it. We are going to be moving on post so we can save some money and hopefully meet some good friends for our time remaining here. I would appreciate all prayers you could say for his family and also for us over here. It's just a hard time, but I know we are going to get through this and be stronger for it.

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