"The one who calls you is faithful & He will do it" 1 Thessalonians 5:24
I want to sit here and pretend that I have not had major hysterical meltdowns, when thinking about our future as a family. But to be honest that is not the case, the truth of the matter is that I have completely been re-learning what I thought I knew about God and the way he works.
One important thing for me to remember in all of this, is that I AM Weak.I need to rely on the One who is good, perfect, and never fails. God is faithful to his plans, and not necessarily mine because what I think is best may be the complete opposite of His plan for my life.
I know that our decision to not move our family to Germany was the best decision for our family at the time. The "what-if" we had gone just isn't going to happen for our family at this time and I'm learning to be okay with that decision, mostly because God is okay with it. Our future thankfully does not rely on my works, but my faith. Which I can tell you, has been small as of late.
I have no idea of what the future holds but I do know who holds the future. I pray that Tim and I can cling to that, that God decides and that he remains faithful even when we fail.
The job with the Amarillo PD fell through ( although I haven't felt led towards that job) it was still a little heartbreaking for me to see my husband so disappointed. Not even a week later he was called by a company ( I won't share the name for safety reasons) and offered a contracting job in Afghanistan. He was asked to leave on Friday! LOL Obviously this job is not going to happen, but he was assured that as soon as his separation date was within 20 days, he would be contacted again for a different position.
This has been a huge weight off our shoulders. Although a contracting job as personal security is not ideal, it is a job in a terrible economy,and let's face it, the pay is pretty fantastic. Our Faith continues to grow and we know that no matter the outcome. God remains faithful and he is calling us to something different that we could ever have imagined.
We are so blessed by those who continue to pray for us and love on us while we face this transition in our lives!