It's kinda funny when you think about how life just completely never turns out how you think or "want".I say "want" like this because, I don't think anyone really really knows what they want.In my mind I always thought in order to be happy, I would go to college, teach high school history, eventually get married, and maybe have children. What a thing the Lord has taught me about Happiness.I never finished college, I never became a teacher in high school....Instead I got pregnant when I was just 18 years old, had my first child at 19, got married when I was 21. Had a second child at 22,and then a third at 24. I can tell you, this life isn't perfect.It is Beautiful though. I am a teacher.I teach 3 amazing babies everyday.I teach them about Jesus, about love, about playing and getting dirty.And I am Taught.They teach me grace, patience, and how to play and get dirty WITH them.I married my very best friend.He is incredible, even if we sometimes get on one anothers nerves. These past months have been hard, really hard.But when I take the time to really think about all the wonderful things going on, it isn't sadness I feel....it's gratefulness, happiness. happy that the Lord is so full of Grace that he continues to teach, and mold me.Even when i least deserve it.
I really like how you said that your life wasn't perfect, but that it was beautiful. I have been thinking a lot lately about how my life has turned out nothing like I planned to it be, but I am going to start believing that God has a more beautiful plan for me.
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