Yellow Ribbon Diary

On May 5, it was International Bereaved Mother's Day.

Although I never got to hold my baby,

meet my baby,

feel my baby growing and kicking,

to know if my baby was a sweet little boy or girl,

I am still the mama to that very sweet baby!

Since the miscarriage (read about it here),

our lives have so dramatically changed!

We have so much unknown territory in our future.

But I often wonder the what ifs?

What if I was 4& 1/2 months pregnant today?

How would our lives be?

What would be going on?

Would I get to have a home birth?

So many unanswered questions.

I do feel that everything happens for a reason.

 but sometimes it feels like a cruel joke. Surprise a new baby! Then it was just taken away.

I'm thankful for the sweet babies I do have. I'm also hopeful for a another baby in the future.

and I know one day we will meet our baby in heaven!

The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” Job 1:21